I’m facing a bit of a dilemma. Upon browsing through the Dedicant Path supplemental handbook, I’ve found that the author included a ritual for the First Oath. It’s fairly lengthy (about three pages) and is very detailed. I don’t mind the fact that the author took the time to come up with this on his own (it’s not included in the official Dedicant Path handbook). However, I do mind that he’s suggesting I go outside and state my clear intentions right now. Almost like a “make or break” point for people who are new to the path.
The author is quotes as saying, “This is a binding oath, and when you make it, you are swearing to these deities that you will lead a virtuous, pious, studious life, and that you will worship them and honour them to the best of your ability.”
I thought I left Catholicism to get away from all this binding stuff!
I have no problem setting up a makeshift altar on my desk and penning a few paragraphs about my personal intentions, dedication, and goals. But to say that I either go big or go home is a bit of a stretch. Maybe not for others, but for me.
That’s not to say I’m not dedicated, however. I really do want to follow through with my interest in Paganism. Who knows… maybe I find out down the road that Druidry just isn’t for me. I don’t want to have to explain to spirits why I broke the oath I made five, ten, or thirty years ago; they won’t mind.
A virtuous, pious, and studious life… I’m fine with that. That’s why I’ve taken an interest in Zen. But I’m naturally agnostic. I have trouble bowing and worshiping deities and spirits. Buddhism showed me that a religion or belief can have a leader without him or her thinking that they have acquired the status of a God. Like Buddha said, he is not a God. Everything he has done, anyone can do. It doesn’t get much more accessible than that!
Hence, I’m at a crossroads. No, I won’t let this one little thing make me turn my back on Paganism because I feel like I can’t make an oath to deities. I want to. But how can I when I don’t worship the deities of neo-Paganism and neo-Druidry? Am I wrong to think this?
I’m asking for big ideas… hehe. And if you’ve made an oath and are comfortable with sharing, please do.
Thanks to all,